Writing

Essays on the medicine hidden in the stories we're told to dismiss: romance novels read for what they're actually doing, astrology read for what it's asking, and the liminal ground between what was and what's becoming.

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Desire and Doubt Are a Slow Burn
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Desire and Doubt Are a Slow Burn

There's a story that's been niggling at me since last Fall, three characters who moved into my mind to live rent free until I write them down. This week I sat with them properly: a notebook, a couple of books on how to write a novel, and a card spread for each one to see past my own rational mind. What follows is the uncomfortable romance between desire and doubt, the way they sit on my shoulders like a pair of angels pulling in opposite directions. It's about wanting to write a novel and doubting I can, about the friction of prep and the temptation to stay there forever, and what a year of reading did to a woman finally reaching for the writer's chair.

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The Anchor in the Storm Archetype
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The Anchor in the Storm Archetype

A chain pulled tight looks like the safer arrangement. It looks like the one that's really holding on. It's the one that rips the anchor out of the ground and can break the boat in half. What looks like looseness isn't a failure of holding. It's the thing that makes the holding work.

The chain is the part you can inspect. You can haul it up, check the links, know what it held last time and how it behaved. The ground is the part you never see. You drop into it and either it bites or it doesn't, and no amount of looking will tell you beforehand.

The chain is trust. The ground is faith.

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Mr. Darcy was my first Threshold Lover
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Mr. Darcy was my first Threshold Lover

Eighteen years ago I wrote a thesis about romantic comedies as maps of the heroine's transformation, then set it down and went underground. This summer's solar eclipse brought it back up, along with the man who started all of it. Mr Darcy was the first character I couldn't explain my way out of, and following him led me somewhere I didn't expect: to a husband, back to making art, back to astrology, and eventually to eight figures I now call Threshold Lovers. What we return to isn't random.

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Meeting my Threshold Lover
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Meeting my Threshold Lover

At every crossing there is a companion who carries an erotic charge. Not necessarily because it will lead to a romantic encounter. Because desire is a potent compass, and more than that, desire is what moves the body toward making things take shape in the physical world. When a crossing is genuinely hard, the thing missing is almost never information. Most of us know exactly what we should do. We have the map, the advice, the framework, the three good reasons, and we sit in the chair another year anyway, fully informed and completely immobile. What is missing is appetite.

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The Mafioso at the Threshold
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The Mafioso at the Threshold

Our internal resistance studied at the university of You—weaponizing your own values to keep you from changes that part of you knows are inevitable. The exhausting truth: it takes more energy to refuse transformation than to surrender to it.

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The Fluff Reads Oracle
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The Fluff Reads Oracle

Trust your gut, choose a card, and uncover the romantic mood you need right now. It’s like a fortune cookie for book lovers—cheeky, fun, and tailored to entice your romance cravings.

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